If I had to describe my ex with one word, it would be drama. He is exhausting and he drains me - how does someone try to run your life from over two thousand miles away... sigh. My daughter is the one good thing that came from that relationship - that and my growth. It is hard - honestly. I'm not a bitter person - and I firmly believe that it takes two individuals to make a relationship either work or fail... and even though we loved each other in the begining - we became toxic to each other... he fed of my low self esteem - and my lack of confidence regarding my beauty & appeal allowed him to manipulate me - to my detriment - for 8 long years...
Funny enough, achieving my professional goals helped give me the confidence to finally leave - in fact, one summer - summer of 2007 to be exact - changed my life forever...
I've decided to write about it - because this will allow me to heal - and more importantly, forgive myself for the years of idiocy that I allowed myself to go through... but honestly - the most relevant and significant reason is to be able to love wholeheartedly again - to trust and believe in my mate unwaveringly - and not feel like I am dealing with a court of law - where everything I do or say, can and will be held against me.
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